Sunday, 18 October 2015

Day 73 - A Lazy Sunday

I only took a half a sleeping pill last night. That will be the plan tonight also. It was a very normal night, and I got up early feeling refreshed.

The one grab bar by the toilet feels like a good thing. There should be another by the toilet, and a few in the shower. I walked to the mall today. 6.2km. I looked at raised toilet seats, and bought two more grab rails.
I almost bought a raised toilet seat, but wasn't sure if Maddie would want to use one, so I needed one that goes on and off easily. The height worried me, so when back home I stacked books as a test to the same height as the one I think will be best. It is a good height for me. I'll buy it tomorrow.

While walking today, I was thinking how, when I introduce myself and my cancer type at chemo, none of the other cancer patients have ever heard of Angiosarcoma. I would like more people to know about it.

People think that cancer is cancer. Some cancers are trivial and not threatening at all, and some are very aggressive. Angiosarcoma has to be one of the worst.

So here is a short course on cancers, so you can be informed, and inform others.

Difference between sarcoma, and cancer.

Characteristics of Carcinomas
  • Most common cancers in the world
  • Comprise more than 90 percent of all cancers
  • Primarily affect people age 50 or older
  • Spread throughout body through blood and lymph
  • May spread to lymph nodes, lungs and bones
  Carcinomas, originate in epithelial (like the lining of lungs) tissue.
Carcinomas include cancers of the breast, lung, kidney, colon, prostate, stomach and many other soft tissues.


Characteristics of Sarcomas
  • Comprise about only 1 percent of all cancers
  • Affect both young and old people
  • Grow in ball-like masses
  • Spread by satellite nodules
  • May spread to lungs
Sarcomas are a rare form of cancerous tumors of the connective tissues.  Normal connective tissue include, fat, blood vessels, nerves, bones, muscles, deep skin tissues, and cartilage.

 Angiosarcomas - Angiosarcomas represent 1% of all sarcomas. It starts inside the veins. That makes it spread very quickly. One-third of the cases occur on the skin like mine did . Angiosarcoma is a type of Soft Tissue Sarcoma.
According to the National Cancer Institute, there are approximately 11,280 new cases of soft tissue sarcoma in the United States each year and approximately 3,900 people die from it each year.

The most successful treatment for angiosarcoma is amputation of the affected limb. Chemotherapy may be administered if there is metastatic disease. If there is no evidence of metastasis beyond the limb,  chemotherapy may be given anyway due to the possibility of micrometastatic tumors, again like me. Evidence supporting the effectiveness of chemotherapy is, in many cases, unclear due to a wide variety of factors and rarity of angiosarcoma. However, there is some evidence to suggest that drugs such as paclitaxel (what I get), doxorubicin, ifosfamide, and gemcitabine slow tumor activity.

There is also Basil cell and Squamous cell carcinomas, but these grow slowly, and do not metastasize.

When talking with the dietitian, I thought about how I have terminal cancer, and they are chopping my leg off to try to slow it down, and she thinks I should eat another egg for breakfast. She doesn't see the elephant in the room.

I managed to hook up my refrigerator and washing machine to the solar inverter. I'll do laundry in the morning after the sun starts shining.





Saturday, 17 October 2015

Day 72 - Long blog. Amputation Team Talks

07:35
I slept well, and and up by 7. I need to eat something and take all my pills. I should be doing my exercises. I had sciatica this morning. First time in a long time. I blame the position I was in when I fell asleep on the bed yesterday after the doctors appointments.
 I have an exercise sheet by the physiotherapist and should be doing those now.
My back needs care. A bad back and losing a leg could be a bad combination.
I wanted to install my new solar inverter today, but first need to rewire my solar panels and batteries.
I just tried to get up from the toilet, not using my left leg. No way.
I want to write all about the conversations with the amputation people yesterday.
It is cold this morning, and have on a track suit.
 The place where I live is 40 sq/ms. (360 sq/ft). That is about the size of Maddie's bedroom where she stays now. I need to make more room somehow.
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18:00
I'm tired and it will be an early night.

I managed to install a grab rail by the toilet. It is strong, but two are needed. Just one grab rail, on one side only, is not ideal. Getting up using only the one leg is possible, but not easy. I'll install another grab rail tomorrow.

My new solar inverter installed and working. At least I think it is working. I had to rewire the panels and batteries in series instead of parallel, because the new system is 24 volts instead of 12 volts.
A few minutes ago, the solar panels were supplying the house, even though the sun was almost set. Then I turned on the computers and fans. The solar panels could not handle that load. The box switched to the batteries and they came online via the inverter. But they have not been on charge all day, so they soon complained, and the box switched over to the grid. The lights never even flickered or blinked. Solar continued to charge the batteries while the grid supplied the house. Then the sun set, and the grid started charging the batteries as well as the house. Tomorrow will tell the whole story when the  sun comes up onto the panels.

There are numerous advantages to having a planned amputation. The prosthesis guy said the main reason more above knee amputation people don't use prosthesis (only 20% do) is because a prosthesis requires muscles that they had never used. The first experiences are not pleasant or productive. Hamstrings and quadriceps are no longer hooked to anything that moves, so they do nothing. Many people keep trying to use them, and that is frustrating. The muscle that moves the prosthesis forward are your hip flexors, and the glutamus move the leg backwards. With advanced notice, like I have, I can work on strengthening those muscles before the operation.

Yesterday I had 5 interviews. The surgeon was in surgery, but left a message that he still didn't yet have the new PET scan pictures.

1. Dietitian - I told her my full story from scorpion to now. She listened, and wrote down everything about my eating.  She looked at all my blood test results. Bottom line was she wants me to eat more eggs and protein. Sort of a waste of time talking to her. Maddie has been telling me to eat more protein for months.

2. Psychologist - Again, the full story from scorpion to now. She said that I seemed to have the right attitude, and the right amount of anger and the right amount of sadness. I told her that the thing that bothers me most, is that even getting through all the amputation palaver, I still have Angiosarcoma. The whole leg thing is almost trivial compared to the Angiosarcoma.
 If there was no Angiosarcoma at all, and I still had to lose the leg, I would tell them to take the leg, let me heal, give me a prosthesis, and get out of my way, because I have a life to live. The Angiosarcoma is the elephant in the room whenever I talk to these amputation people.

3. Pysiotherapist - She will be in charge of my exercises, and getting me ready after the amputation. She then sort of passes me off to the next lady.

4. Occupational Therapist - This seems to be the person I will have most contact with after surgery. She teaches the new life. From toilet use, crutches, wheel chair, driving, and to using the prosthesis. She says she works very close with the prosthesis guys. They handle the mechanics, and she handles the skills.  She said that some times the two groups overlap and I may feel like I don't know who to talk to. In that case I should talk to both.
She gave me a list of stuff I should do now.
  Think about a different car. One that has an automatic transmission should be all I need, since it is my left leg that will be amputated.
 She advised that I now try many daily tasks using only my right leg.
 She advised I get a toilet seat extension to raise up the seat.
 She suggested grab bars for the toilet, and the shower. Also non slip strips on the shower floor, and a shower chair.
I tried some things today with only the right leg. It is very hard.  I absolutely cannot get up from the toilet with just the one leg.
I tried to get to some boxes in the shed. I couldn't move the tool box. I couldn't move the ladder. With two legs, I can do all those with a cup of coffee in my hand. With one leg I could do nothing, even with both hands.
She said I will get tired of her talking about COB. Center Of Balance. So many people start moving around after an amputation by hopping, or using crutches like three legs. She says if I want to learn the prosthesis soonest, I will use a walker more than crutches, and almost never a wheel chair, and use the good leg to take half of my weight, never all of it. So when I get a prosthesis I will automatically put half my weight on it, and half on the good leg. If I do that then I am 90% of the way to independence with the prosthesis.
 I will surely listen to this lady. She talks sense.

5. Prosthesis guy - Cool dude. Passionate about prosthesis technology. We chatted a long time. He was there with his assistant.
First thing he asked was which Medical Aid I am on. I told him Discovery Classic Priority. He and the assistant smiled. He says I am on a very prosthetic friendly plan. This plan even has a yearly maintenance and upgrade payment for prosthesis. Discovery says that proper full time use of a prosthesis actually lowers overall health costs. They say that if you actually use the prosthesis, then you will want a better one every year.
He explained that modern prosthesis are modular. I will have a socket, knee, shaft, ankle, and foot. Cheaper feet don't have ankles.
Medical Aid will not pay for the best in each. They pay for just below average. He says that the stump socket is by far the most important. If it fits poorly, or causes pain, then all the other fancy stuff is useless. He will spend all the money from the medical aid that is necessary on the socket, then we will use the money left over for the other things.
He explained how a golf leg is useless for walking, and a walking leg is useless for sports. He has one customer that does roofing. He says he can build a leg to do anything, but nobody can build a leg for everything.
After talking to me, he was happy to say that an unlimited walking prosthesis is one of the cheapest. He said that a good foot is more important than a good knee for unlimited walking. He has one customer that had an above the knee amputation that just hiked the Fish River Canyon. That is a 90 km, 6 day, sandy, and rocky, carry all your own food and camping gear hike.
 He said just be glad I don't play squash. That is big bucks.
 He said they have loaner knees and feet. If I come past the factory, they will be able to loan a different foot or knee for me to test. I asked where the factory is. What luck. It is about 1km from my house. He laughed and said he expects to see me every few weeks to try some different knee or foot. They keep about 15 different knees in stock for tryouts, and about 10 different feet. I can see me there every week to try something different. It takes about 15 minutes to change a knee or foot.
I am excited, but then I remember, that there is still that elephant in the room.
He said he was thrilled that I am a computer, Arduino, aircraft mechanic kind of guy. He says that is good because there is nothing that will be magic or complex about the prosthesis. I'll also be able to trouble shoot 99% of it by myself.
I asked him how long it would be after the operation before I could get a prosthesis. He said his quickest customer walked without a cane or crutches after 15 days. The average is 3 months, and if there are any complications, it can take years.
He said I will be much better prepared because I know what is happening. Most people wake up without a leg after an auto accident. They have a long way before they are ready.
I asked why there is only a 50% survival rate after 12 months from through-knee amputations.
And there was the elephant!
 In a trauma accident amputation they usually can't do a through-knee amputation.  Only with a planned amputation, is through-knee most common, and therefore, there is some underlying reason or disease to do something so dramatic as a leg amputation. Most planned through-knee amputations are done on very sick people.
 I asked what I could do to ensure a quick and successful transition to the prosthesis. He said that I have the right mental attitude, motivation, and good physical strength. He said to do all the exercises the occupational therapist says.
He says the biggest delay to getting a healthy stump, is falling. He say a large portion of his clients do something like jump out of bed to go pee and forget they have lost the leg, and fall on the stump. This causes trauma to a delicate, healing stump. A fall can delay the prosthetic process by months. He says the occupational therapist will suggest things like sides to the bed, and maybe even tying yourself when sitting, so you can't move out of a chair till you untie your self, or other tricks like that.

Wow this was a long blog.
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Friday, 16 October 2015

Day 71 - Four Doctor appointments today

02:21
I slept very well from about 22:30 till now. Now I am awake. I just made some hot milk Horlicks.

In South Africa there are 3 different types of hot milk drinks. Milo, Hot Chocolate, and Horlicks. Horlicks is usually for bed time, and Milo is for morning, and hot chocolate is for getting fat :-)

Tomorrow at noon I have 4 doctor appointments.
12:00 with a shrink. This is required by medical aid to see if I truley understand whats happening to me.
12:30 with a physio guy.
13:00 with a prosthesis guy.
13:30 with the surgeon to book the surgery.

I was thinking about talking with the shrink. I should just have her read my blog. I have told all and not held back. Probably it would show a more reliable indicator of my "state of mind" than a chat with a stranger. The physio guy will be not so productive. The physio for my back helped about 1/10th as much as a biokinetisist did.  Physio is a good thing to help learn to walk without a leg. I'll do it, and it will help during the recovery phase.

 Talking to the prosthesis guy will be the highlight. Can I build one myself? I bet with a 3D  printer, and an Arduino I could build a pretty good prosthesis. I have also done fiberglass molding.
I was thinking that if you made a hinge knee, with like a brake pad on the hinge shaft, so that when pressure was put on the artificial heal, it was like applying the brakes on a car or bicycle, and the rocking of the foot forward as you walk, the toe push off, would release the brake. That would allow a stiff leg when putting weight on it, and a floppy leg with no weight on it. By varying the amount of friction, I could control the rate of the leg swinging forward. With proper geometry, or using a small olio strut, the removal of weight for the swing forward could also make the leg a bit shorter to swing forward unobstructed. This is all simple to build and design. I have over hauled many olio struts on aircraft, and made a few tight fitting fiberglass molds, like for the socket to fit the stump. The brake system could be a simple hydraulic brake like a bicycle, or maybe just a push rod.

I have read a lot about the through-knee operations, and recovery from them. The statistics don't look good. Only about 20% of the people ever succeed in using a prosthesis. Only 50% live for 12 months or longer. It is not a trivial operation. Add Angiosarcoma to that, and I think I am a "Dead Man Walking"......well sort of walking.
  Not even a good movie type of stroll with a priest to the gas chamber.  More like clumping with crutches, or in a wheel chair. "Dead Man Rolling" may be a better phrase.

I only have till the operation to get my solar system working the way I want for the long term future. I can't see me walking around on the roof for awhile. Like maybe never again! I had my friend order a solar box. It is an MPPT solar charge controller,  a house UPS, a battery charger, a 2400watt pure sign wave inverter, and a computerized relay to control whether the batteries are charged with solar or off the grid.  I could use it with the system I have now, but would be much better with more solar panels, and nice solar batteries. If I had a kilowatt more of panels and 2 x 105AH batteries, I could run my microwave, kettle, refrigerator, washing machine, and the geyser (hot water heater) Of course only one at a time. But that would be 100% off grid living.
As a practical investment, not such a good idea. Return on that investment would take 7 to 9 years.

My Fantasy Football team is now in 3rd place. Three wins in a row. I missed the first two games with the strong chemo. Now I am ready to kick ass for game 6.

I am glad I don't have to read these blogs, just write them. I have the easier job.
It is 04:17, let me try sleep again.
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21:00
A very long day, and I am tired.
I had a talk with the team that will do the amputation.
Over all it was an informative day. Way to much to tell now, as I am very tired.

I did not get to see the surgeon. He was in surgery. He will call on Monday.

My friend brought by a solar inverter I ordered. He picked it up for me. I hope that is my weekend project.

I'll explain all about my talks with the team in tomorrows blog. For now good night.
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Thursday, 15 October 2015

Day 70 - Bad chemo reactions

Whew...This chemo was a bad one. Some seem worse. I am sure dosages have a lot to do with it, but there must be other factors. I slept 14 hours, and need a nap.

Yesterdays dosages were:

I just tried to find the paper the chemo lady gave showing all doses that she gave yesterday. I had asked her for it.
In my file folder where all cancer papers are located the little tabs showing contents of each section were all missing. So I needed to make some. I couldn't find scissors. So I used my hair cutting ones, then I needed paper, but wanted coffee first.
  So I made coffee. Then needed a spoon to stir it. (I never stir coffee, as I drink it black) I looked on the silverware rack for a spoon, in the sink, and in the drying rack. No spoons at all, every spoon in the house had disappeared. I looked by the computer, in the drawers, and all over the tables. No spoons. So I used a fork.
After, I went to wash off the fork, and found 3 spoons in the sink. When I put the fork in the drying rack I found 3 more spoons. Then I remembered the silverware rack, and there were 3 spoons.  My brain had falsely remembered that I needed a spoon, but had forgot what a spoon looked like.
I took my coffee and paper and scissors to the table to make tabs for my folder, and saw that there were already well labeled tabs on each section of the folder.
  Now I ask you a question. Would you want to live in a world, where your brain worked like that?  Or is it time for the next great adventure?  I worry that the next life will be even worse than this one, so I am not yet ready to risk going there.
 A WhatsApp from Maddie reminded me that this is just chemo brain, and I should go nap.
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13:00
After nap
I was going to delete the previous part of this blog, as it is just a stupid thing to write about. I decided to leave it as it was my true thoughts at the time.

 It is such a beautiful day out clear, sunny, with a light breeze. I am still inside, with the alarm still set, and in my underwear. Angiosarcoma and chemo have robbed me of this beautiful day. That is so sad.

Yesterday's doses were:
Paclitaxel      - 132mg   -  Main Cancer fighter
Dexona         - 4mg       -  dexamethasone is a  corticosteroids. It  reduces inflammation and other allergic reactions.
Onicit            - .25mg   - used in the prevention and treatment of chemotherapy-induced nausea and vomiting.
Cimetidine    - 200mg  - used to treat ulcers, gastroesophageal reflux disease, and heartburn 
Zofer             - 4mg      - prevents nausea after chemo. Taken with the Onicit.

So I had three small bags before the main chemo. The lady puts in the correct dosages, then fills the bags with saline solution. I feel nothing from these. After those, she gives the Paclitaxel. That is the bad stuff.

I have such a long list of things I want to do today.
Find and buy a car,
Set up an IPv6 tunnel,
Buy a new inverter for my solar system,

But maybe a short nap, then a short walk.
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18:00
I just got home. I think walking helps move the chemo out of the system, or at least move it around. So with a tired body I started walking to the Chinese mall about 4 km away. After about a 1km I realized that was not going to happen, so I diverted to another closer mall.  I bought some fish on special and walked back. 5 km total. I am very tired. I can walk 5 km on a leg that must come off? Where is the rectitude in that?   FUAS.  Such a shame.
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Wednesday, 14 October 2015

Maddie - First post on Dan's Blog.

I'm Maddie, Dan's girlfriend. I stay in George, Southern Cape, South Africa.

My plan is to fly up to Johannesburg, two days before Dan's amputation, to support and care for him the best I can.  I'm not a nurse, but I'm prepared and willing to be my dear friend's caregiver.

As his caregiver, I see my role as follows:
- be a good listener, when he needs to talk.
- drive him to the hospital, doctor's and physio appointments.
- prepare him nutritious meals and make super healthy smoothies.
- do his shopping and laundry.
- write his blog on his behalf, when he's not able to.
- lift his spirit and be medicine for his soul.

I care deeply for my friend.  I realize the future challenges awaiting him, but I've got confidence in him.  He's a survivor through and through and will get through this difficult time with courage and strong willpower.

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Day 69 - 6th Chemo Day

Last night, Maddie and I had a long phone chat about the upcoming amputation. She will fly here a few days before, and nurse me. :-) She isn't a trained health care person, but she is great for the soul. Right now my soul needs as much care as my body does. It will be good to see her again, but I fear it will strain our relationship, as I am not a good person lately. If I don't like me, how can someone else?

A good friend dropped by last night on his way home from work, and we talked computers for a few hours. It is good to think about other things for a short while. But Angiosarcoma is still the predominant theme running through my mind.
We were talking about an IPv6 Firewall on a VPS that was misbehaving. It sure looked like it was configured properly. While discussing it, my mind would drift to other things, like will I be able to talk with him in a year, will VPS Firewalls be the last thing on my mind in a year. Aren't things like the lizard population in my back yard actually more important to this world that VPS firewalls? And what about amputations and artificial knee joints. How would the knee joint communicate with the ankle joint.Some of the artificial legs use high speed serial protocols, but most prosthesis are low tech rods and cables, even the ones that are called state of the art. "State of the art" in prosthesis is not very high tech compared with something that can be mass produced like your home WiFi router......Oh.... IPv6.....And my mind returns to my buddy talking.
It feels like chemo brain, but I have been chemo free for days now. I think it would probably take weeks to rid myself of the effects of chemo.

After he left, I took a sleeping pill and that gave me a good nights sleep. The best in weeks.

Today is chemo day. So in a few hours, I will be considering petting the dog, as a high tech procedure, that will require a lot of concentration to do properly. I hate stupid people. In a few hours I will be one. :-(

It is a cloudy day. My solar system is only giving me 2.4 amps. Yesterday it was around 10.4 by this time. I am going to admit defeat and switch the house to the grid. The solar won't even keep my laptop running. I do have the WiFi router running on the solar system. It only draws .7 amps.

I really want to be hooking up an IPv6 tunnel to the USA high speed internet backbone.  But I think I will eat some steamed broccoli for breakfast instead. I also need to start a load of laundry.
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22:00
I better be quick, I took a sleeping pill 25 minutes ago.

Chemo was chemo. I passed out in the chair, and the lady woke me up and said that she pulled the IV out 20 minutes ago, and they have cleaned everywhere, and want to go home. I've never been kicked out of Chemo facility before. It must be a first. Usually people zoom out of that place. :-)
I was very careful on the drive home. I should not have been driving. I stopped in a petrol station near the hospital and really thought about calling a taxi. But I just drive home. I'm glad I did.

I have started shopping for a car with an automatic transmission. It sure looks like a 1995-ish E220 Mercedes-Benz is about what I will be buying. Most are between R20,000 - R40,000. ( US$1500 and US$3000) A real petrol hog, but I usually only drive about 100 km/month so petrol is not that big a consideration when compared with ease of entry, initial cost and safety. Maintenance will be high, but only if it is things that "need" fixing, and not just squeaks and groans. It will only be a community car and will seldom go 100km/hr, or travel more that 10 km. I need to do this purchase soon, as I would much rather Maddie be driving around in a Mercedes that a beetle. I'm sure she would also. :-)

I had a long talk with the oncologist. She will go visit the surgeon and chat with him. Their offices are very close in the same complex.
I told her that I may have surgery next week, and she said she didn't think so.
 The surgeon will want a week to 10 days for the white blood cell count to raise up a bit before any surgery, so he will probably cancel chemo for a week or two before surgery. Since the surgeon was very specific that we don't stop chemo, and don't lower the dosage for this week, he must think surgery will only be after 10 day to 2 weeks from now.

Maddie and I just talked. I have made her a contributing editor of my blog. So if I can not write for the day, she can tell people what is happening with me on the blog. She will be able to write her own blog on Kgwedi's Cancer blog site.
I hope we don't screw that up. :-)
It would be easy for one of us to write something, then the other correct a spelling mistake and wipe out what the other has written. We need to be careful.

I'm am drowsy. Heading for bed.
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Tuesday, 13 October 2015

Day 68 - Amputations 101

I got up early after a poor nights sleep. I was wide awake when the alarm went off.

Right in front of my house is a road that is only open for a few hours a day. It is used to relieve the main road which is nearby of rush hour traffic. I know that at 07:30 the road is like a parking lot, so I wanted to leave early and be at the hospital by 06:30 and have a leisurely breakfast.

 My appointment with the orthopedic surgeon was for 08:30. I was in the waiting room by 8, with all papers filled out.

The surgeon is Phillip. Nice guy. His sister lives in Houston Texas.

He looked at all my papers and pictures. We chatted a lot about my leg,
and the cancer growing in it.

We talked about the chemo. He said that Chemo can stop Angiosarcoma tumors from growing larger, but is not very good at killing the tumors. No matter how much chemo I get, the 5cm around each tumor still needs to be removed. Even if the chemo makes the tumors smaller, it will not reduce the distance that the cancer has already spread.

This type of cancer both spreads to surrounding tissue, but also metastasizes to far parts of the body.

While he was poking around, I was surprised to feel pain in quite a few spots, deep in the leg. I had never noticed that before. He did accurate measurements of the extent of the cancer tumors according to the PET scan.  He is going to ask the PET scan people to redo the photos with accurate measurement on each picture.

He agreed that the removal of all tumors and surrounding tissue will result in very little skin or muscle left between the knee and the ankle. It would make the leg useless, and very infection prone, even with a skin graft.

 There is a good chance that some of the cancer seeds have already spread throughout my body, but if the leg is left as is there will be thousands more of the "seeds" spread from the tumors, via the blood, to all parts of the body. So if there are like, only 5 seeds that have spread, those will be tumors that we will have to fight in future. If we leave the leg as is, there might be thousands of tumors to fight in future. Amputation is the only option, and therefore by definition, not an option, but a necessity.

He then mentioned that removing the leg may extend my life by years, but it does not change the diagnosis of Angiosarcoma.

He showed how much of the lower leg he needs to leave in order to be able to form a stump. I had sort of resigned myself to walking like Oscar Pistorius. Then he showed how much he would have to remove to get all the cancer. He will have to remove more leg than will allow a stump to mount a prosthesis on. That was bad news.

A lower leg prosthesis would cost about $50,000 USD for a good one that would allow unlimited walking. Now he was telling me that I did not even have that option.

The above the knee amputations mean that the prosthesis will require a knee joint. A good knee joint costs about $40,000 USD. That means that a good above-the-knee prosthesis will cost the current value of my house. I asked how much Medical Aid would pay. More bad news.

He then said that Medical Aid probably wouldn't pay for any prosthesis, even a below-the-knee one. They only pay for prosthesis if there may be future health complication by not having one. If a young guy has a trauma and the leg gets amputated, then the possibility of future complications becomes a concern to the Medical Aid. With a prosthesis he will less likely to develop back problems and obesity problems. He must still be employable to pay the Medical Aid premiums.

He also said that Medical Aid would probably not consider paying for a prosthesis for somebody with Angiosarcoma, because they would see it as a waste of time. In my case, lack of a prosthesis will have little effect on my long term health. His opinion is that Medical Aid will only pay for a wheel chair or crutches.

Then more bad news. Because Medical Aid would not pay for a prosthesis, there was no need to pay for the surgery required to be able to mount a prosthesis onto. Medical Aid would probably only pay for a through-knee amputation.

Amputation at the knee joint means that no thigh muscles or bones are cut. It leaves the femur 100% intact, and usually leaves the knee cap. This reduces the hospital time significantly because the healing is only the skin wounds and sutures. Unfortunately mounting a prosthesis on the old knee joint is hard to do.

The through-knee stump is not padded with muscle, only skin at the bottom of the femur. Also it is not tapered to allow a prosthesis stump socket. If a socket can be made, it will mean that the new artificial knee joint is a few inches below the real knee. Then both legs have knee joints in different places. This makes walking difficult, even with an expensive prosthesis.

There are more through-knee amputations now days. They are cheaper, and heal much quicker. Because of this, they are developing new ways to fit prosthesis for through-knee stumps. There are now web sites that promote through-knee amputations.  That money saving can be spent on a better prosthesis.

We both agreed that removing all known cancer is the main goal. The secondary goal is life style.

So on Friday I have 4 appointments. One with a psychologist, and one with a physiotherapist. Both are required by Medical Aid. Then another with the prosthetic guy to get actual numbers, options, and actual Medical Aid info. Then with the surgeon, to book surgery.

 They wanted to do the appointments tomorrow or Thursday. But tomorrow is chemo day, and I will probably sleep for a few days. I hope by Friday I will be able to drive there, and more important, to think well.

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