Day 70 - Bad chemo reactions

Whew...This chemo was a bad one. Some seem worse. I am sure dosages have a lot to do with it, but there must be other factors. I slept 14 hours, and need a nap.

Yesterdays dosages were:

I just tried to find the paper the chemo lady gave showing all doses that she gave yesterday. I had asked her for it.
In my file folder where all cancer papers are located the little tabs showing contents of each section were all missing. So I needed to make some. I couldn't find scissors. So I used my hair cutting ones, then I needed paper, but wanted coffee first.
  So I made coffee. Then needed a spoon to stir it. (I never stir coffee, as I drink it black) I looked on the silverware rack for a spoon, in the sink, and in the drying rack. No spoons at all, every spoon in the house had disappeared. I looked by the computer, in the drawers, and all over the tables. No spoons. So I used a fork.
After, I went to wash off the fork, and found 3 spoons in the sink. When I put the fork in the drying rack I found 3 more spoons. Then I remembered the silverware rack, and there were 3 spoons.  My brain had falsely remembered that I needed a spoon, but had forgot what a spoon looked like.
I took my coffee and paper and scissors to the table to make tabs for my folder, and saw that there were already well labeled tabs on each section of the folder.
  Now I ask you a question. Would you want to live in a world, where your brain worked like that?  Or is it time for the next great adventure?  I worry that the next life will be even worse than this one, so I am not yet ready to risk going there.
 A WhatsApp from Maddie reminded me that this is just chemo brain, and I should go nap.
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13:00
After nap
I was going to delete the previous part of this blog, as it is just a stupid thing to write about. I decided to leave it as it was my true thoughts at the time.

 It is such a beautiful day out clear, sunny, with a light breeze. I am still inside, with the alarm still set, and in my underwear. Angiosarcoma and chemo have robbed me of this beautiful day. That is so sad.

Yesterday's doses were:
Paclitaxel      - 132mg   -  Main Cancer fighter

Dexona         - 4mg       -  dexamethasone is a  corticosteroids. It  reduces inflammation and other allergic reactions.

Onicit            - .25mg   - used in the prevention and treatment of chemotherapy-induced nausea and vomiting.
Cimetidine    - 200mg  - used to treat ulcers, gastroesophageal reflux disease, and heartburn 

Zofer             - 4mg      - prevents nausea after chemo. Taken with the Onicit.

So I had three small bags before the main chemo. The lady puts in the correct dosages, then fills the bags with saline solution. I feel nothing from these. After those, she gives the Paclitaxel. That is the bad stuff.

I have such a long list of things I want to do today.
Find and buy a car,
Set up an IPv6 tunnel,
Buy a new inverter for my solar system,

But maybe a short nap, then a short walk.
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18:00
I just got home. I think walking helps move the chemo out of the system, or at least move it around. So with a tired body I started walking to the Chinese mall about 4 km away. After about a 1km I realized that was not going to happen, so I diverted to another closer mall.  I bought some fish on special and walked back. 5 km total. I am very tired. I can walk 5 km on a leg that must come off? Where is the rectitude in that?   FUAS.  Such a shame.
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