Dec 20 - 04:10 in the morning

I can't sleep. Lots of phantom pain.
At 21:30 I took 2 Robaxin, and a sleeping pill. AT 22:00 I was in bed. I played Sudoku till about 23:30. There is so much pain... then I started listening to loud music. It is like my goal shifted from trying to sleep, to relieving the pain.
AT 3:15 I got up, made hot horlicks, and tried to read in the big chair. I am so tired. I can barely hold my head up, and the pain is worse. Maybe the pain is a function of how tired I am. I had no pain most of the day. Now it is very strong and consistent.

I just made a big peanut and jelly sandwich. It was good. Now I am making a toasted tomato/ham sandwich with strong mustard I bought today.
I am eating more between 4 and 5 in the morning, than I did the whole day before.

Wow, my sinuses are open and clear. Strong mustard.

My head keeps nodding...then the pain hits, and I am wild awake. This life sucks. Last night I had another crying session. For no reason I start crying. I bet these are all symptoms of depression or something. I don't think I am depressed, because most of the day I was fine. I went shopping with a friend. I crutched and she ran around like a hunting dog finding all my stuff I wanted to buy. She was a blessing. My previous attempts at shopping by my self were not overly successful. I'm glad for the mustard.

There are many VPS companies that now only do ipv6. Japan,  Germany and USA are officially out of ipv4 addresses. Because of the extreme number of ipv6 addresses, the VPS companies don't have the address overhead like they did with ipv4. There are many VPS companies selling VPSs for 2 US$ a month. That is cheap. It is amazing you can get a computer for that price.
The internet backbone is ipv6, and many corporations are ipv6, but ISPs are slow to adapt. The transition from ipv4 to ipv6 can be technically challenging, and many ISPs just don't have the expertise. Also many have lots of money invested in old ipv4 addresses, and now ipv6 addresses are almost free.

I want to build a small trolley out of pvc pipes to carry my laundry basket and the garbage bags.

My friend wants to do something today. I will probably not get any sleep tonight, so I don't know how that will work.

My solar batteries are old, and need replacing. There are some good new batteries available, but they are expensive.

Why am I writing this crap on an angiosarcoma blog? OK I quit.
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