2:20 Morning of Day 5

I can't sleep. Turned out lights at midnight, and was up at 2.
I just made hot lemon water in my new thermos.

How much responsibility toward my friends that will survive me, do I have. Should I die with a clean house and everything packed away nicely for the next tenant? What about my RV in the states? Should I make sure it is ready to be sold by the new owner? I am starting to think of many strange things.

A good friend sent a questionnaire about US political viewpoints. The results of the survey tell what political party or candidate your views support the most.

I made it about half way through, and realized that I really don't care what political party, or person will govern America. 

Questions about what we do about global warming. Irrelevant to me.
Questions about abortion and my pro-life stance. Irrelevant to me.
Questions on criteria for welfare recipients. Irrelevant to me.
Questions on Geneticly modified foods. Irrelevant to me.
Questions on death penalty. Irrelevant to me.
Questions about Unions. Irrelevant to me.
Questions about.....Irrelevant to me.
Questions..Irrelevant to me.
Irrelevant to me.
Irrelevant to me.
Irrelevant to me.

My world now consists of MY world. I seem to share little of it with anyone else. A few days ago the property tax structure of Texas towns was important to me. Now it's importance is on par with ...with..a pile of dirt in some small town in the Mongolian desert.

So much of my life of a few days ago, is now seen for the triviality that it is. People that worry about whether genetically modified foods should be patentable really don't have anything more important in their lives, and must make up stuff to keep busy and feel important.

For the people that are worried about things, like whether labour unions should be subsidised or not, These people should go do important things, like hug their children, kiss the wife, and play with the dog. For God's sake people, get your priorities right.

I remember a saying: You will never meet a hungry environmentalist.

When people are concerned with necessities of life, (food and water) they have no time for the bloated governments or fat cat politicians, or time to spend worrying about tax structures of large corporations.

A can of stolen tuna is far more important to many people than renewable energy subsidies.

To be friends with someone usually requires certain mutual attributes. Financial parity is important. A billionaire, and a homeless bum would not be able to form a meaningful friendship. The bum doesn't want the caviar of the billionaire. He just wants a Big Mac. The more equal two people are financially, the better they will be able to form a friendship.

If you will live another 30 years, and meet someone that will be dead soon, there is little future for that friendship. And now I see that the opposite is also true. Temporal parity is important.

My friend and I used to chat for hours about governments and politics, because those thing would affect our future. They were important. Now they are not important. They will not affect my future.

I seem to be getting morbid. I don't even know for sure that the cancer has spread. Just because all the Doctors say that Angiosarcoma is a fast and deadly disease, and the survival rate is 10% after 5 years doesn't mean it is true. Maybe the biopsy was wrong. Maybe my results got switched somehow.
Maybe not.