Day 2 - Black Swans and friends

Lots of thoughts today. Very chaotic, and not where I want my thoughts to be. I want my thoughts to be on logical problems that I face, not on imaginings. Sometimes I feel that the "future" is really only my imagination at work. It doesn't yet exist. My view of the future is only what I "think" it might possibly be, not what it will be.
Two days ago my future was very different from what it is today. All my worries and dreams have taken a sharp turn in another direction. Today the weather was beautiful, and I walked about 6 km. Today was a very good day. I need to focus more on now, and today, and less on tomorrow.

One of the most influential books I have ever read was "The Black Swan" by Nassim Taleb. It explains how the more unlikely an event is to happen, the more you will be unprepared for it.
You put money away for your kids college education, you try to pay off the house, you save for a new car, then a Black Swan visits. Your in a car wreck and loose your eyesight, a loved one suddenly dies, a meteor strikes your house, or like in my case, you get a sore on your leg. All of a sudden, in seconds, your whole life changes. Much of what you have planed for, becomes irrelevant and trivial.

Two days ago I was wondering if I have enough solar panels to cover the various ineptitude of the electricity supply company. Today, it does not seem very important what the electricity supply will be like in 10 years.

This shift in priorities and interests has me wondering how many of my "friendships" will endure. I have friends that I spend a lot of time with. We have much in common regarding DNS and computer network security. I don't think I have the same devotion to network security that I had two days ago. So will my "friends" find me less of a person they want to be with. If our friendship is based on common interests, and my interests change, will my friendships change also?
Also some people just don't want to be around sick people. Two days ago I was a healthy, strong person....Now today, I can't say that. Will "friends" still want to be around me?

I have set aside enough money for my retirement, in case I live to be 90. Now I am thinking maybe till I'm 70. So should I live like a king for the next few years? That would be great to spend the last of my money, just as I die.
 I could live very well, but then what if I miraculously get cured. Then I have no money for the next 20 years. So many questions, and so few answers.

I had coffee with a friend today. She has had health problems her whole life, and has a wealth of health knowledge. We chatted about different treatments and possible actions. I guess it made me feel better knowing I wasn't the only person in the world with problems. :-)