I took only 1/3 of the sleeping pill last night, and got into bed at 21:00. I woke up at 09:00 ate breakfast, then napped till noon. I ate lunch, then slept till 15:00. A complete wasted day.
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21:30
I am now getting ready for bed after a scary shower. I needed a shower. I crutched half a kilometer again this evening.
When Maddie goes back home, I can see me showering once a month, or when ever the dogs howl or the neighbors complain.
I joined Google+ to see what angiosarcoma sites were there. We found one story that seems the epitome of angiosarcoma stories.
She had a tumor, and it was biopsied and was angiosarcoma. She did full chemo, radiation, after the surgery. She had CT scans every 3 months and was clean for 8 months. She had a scan that was clean. A month later she had pain, and they did a PET scan. Tumors were now present in her lungs, liver, thyroid, and legs. She died a month later.
One month clean, one month tumors, one month dead. That is angiosarcoma.
One reason I am so sleepy is the Lyrica. Many people on the internet hate it because it does work on nerve pains, but takes away your life by making you so tired and sleepy.
I have read one full page in my book in the last few days. I am stupid, and sleepy. Pain or stupid sleep. That is my choice.
If someone gets cancer, and they do radiation, chemo, and surgery, and the patient dies, I would think that they would figure out that cut, burn, poison, does not work. "Well, that didn't work last time, so lets try the exact same thing again." Duh! That is the definition of insanity.
I fear that money is the main factor in cancer treatment. If Doctors were paid by curing patients, I bet a lot more cancer patients would be cured. Now Doctors are paid by how long they can keep you alive and on treatment. Cure equals no treatment. No treatment, no bucks.
Grrrr!
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